Every hour of every day


Published on Tuesday, April 28, 2009 10:20 PM PDT

Through the blood, the intense pain, and the shock I see the Deputy Sheriff sprawled over a rock, dead. We tumble over and over again into the dark Kern River, neither of us wearing seatbelts, the sound of the metal crunching makes me believe death was taking to me.

Every hour of every day I see these images and hear the crash, and when I try to forget, the physical pain triggers the night I cannot forget. People say I should talk to a professional.

No amount of talking to any professional will erase the images in my mind, and no pill they prescribe can dull the sounds of a night that is with me, every hour of every day.

Aside from these waking nightmares, the constant questions play in my head. Why did I have no seatbelt on? Why did the paramedic have to plea for them to take the handcuffs from my mangled body? Why doesn’t the county care what they did to me for the rest of my life? Horrible pain, horrible memories and horrible discarded. I feel a great satisfaction to tell and show a jury. Maybe they will hear, see and feel what I go through, every hour of every day.

Grace Brown

Weldon

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8 comment(s)

    Sage wrote on May 17, 2009 9:30 PM:

    " Grace,
    Please continue to look forward, and do positive things with your life.

    I can't even imagine to know what that night must of been like.

    Just know that there those out there, like me, that do care, and are keeping you in your prayers.

    God bless. "

    rBntD wrote on May 4, 2009 7:39 PM:

    " This may be off-topic, but here goes: I’ve heard there is supposed to be at least one police car patrolling the canyon at all times. But I never see that car. Have I heard wrong, or is the car just hard to see? "

    Mac wrote on May 4, 2009 6:21 PM:

    " I agree with you, Mr. Walker. How many times do our law enforcement personnel do things that we ourselves would be ticketed for? I can't count how many times I've been tailgated by a sheriff or CHP. I've seen CHP (the most egregious offenders) practically run people off the road in the canyon. I'm fed up with the scofflaws who deign to tell us how to drive when they can't even abide by those laws themselves. Personally, I hope Ms. Brown makes out like a bandit. Money is the only thing that might make these people straighten up. "

    M6qh9 wrote on Apr 30, 2009 2:28 PM:

    " Sometimes truth reads like really rotten fiction. Grace, my sympathies are with you. Here’s some sincere advice: Try lying on your back each day and looking at the sky. Know you got through that moment and you’re safe now. Professionals can help you, too—but looking at the sky has worked for me as a sort of home remedy to overcome traumatic events. "

    Bob Walker wrote on Apr 29, 2009 9:12 PM:

    " For those of us who drive for a living, who would have been given a ticket by the very Deputy who did not chose to wear his seat belt-despite being ordered to by his superiors, what is good about his action?
    He committed suicide, plain and simple. And cost we tax payers a fortune in training, and pay for a law enforcement person who broke the law. And he almost killed his ward who was handcuffed. DUH.
    There are a lot of good Sheriff Deputies in this area, and he was not one of them. "

    Ann wrote on Apr 24, 2009 10:11 PM:

    " The Opinion entry by Grace touched me deeply. We had just moved into the KRV right after the unfortunate accident in which she was involved. It is a non-argument that law enforcement personnel have a responsibility to protect those in their custody, whatever the reason for their being in custody. But in this case, things are what they are now, and the clock cannot be turned back. One can only wonder where Grace's life would have ended up had this not happened. I wish her well and hope she kicks butt with financial recovery. "

    Elisa wrote on Apr 22, 2009 4:35 PM:

    " At least you are alive Ms. Brown. If you hadn't broken the law to begin with, you would not have been in the back of the patrol car. Simple as that. No doubt you endured a terrible ordeal but I'm sure you are going to be well compensated for your pain and suffering. Bask in the glow of your satisfaction in front of that jury. Good for you. No amount of money will ease the pain and suffering of the family of the Deputy that was killed. "

    mark wrote on Apr 22, 2009 7:57 AM:

    " the debate rages on as to who was as fault that night.living here for many years and seeing how some of the kcsd drive in the canyon i have my thoughts. but that is another argument. when miss brown was put in the back of the car kcsd took charge of her safe keeping no matter the reason why she was in the car.to put her in the car handcuffed and no seatbelt is a very iresponsable and stupid thing to do.kc should pay big for what they have done to her. i pray for her recovery. "

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